Today has been so frustrating!!!! So we have talked about if all goes well with his port sight and the packing we may get to go home tomorrow? Today they wanted to do a follow up CT scan of Bo’s chest and abdomen to compare to the one in June!?! He has been on 4 months of antibiotic therapy for his MAC, his Last bone marrow biopsy On Sept 26, so far is clear of the MAC, which is great means the meds are working! Today on the CT scan in his liver it showed the same a few granulomas but not inflamed, but his right lung has a few new nodules?!? What the heck!! What does this mean???? What this means is Thursday Bo has to have another lung biopsy. To say I’m disappointed is beyond how I feel. I’m trying to not let it feel like the entire wold is against us, I’m trying to believe that this is the best thing for Bo, I’m trying not to feel sorry for myself… But the reality is I’m sad,angry and disappointed. I miss my husband. Leksi, Johnny and Brookie. So does Bo, I’m pissed that my poor baby has to have this terrible procedure followed by a chest tube and 2 days in the PICU mostly sedated, I’m sad that he already has a gaping hole in his chest that is trying to heal! I WONT LET THIS DEFEAT US.. 2 steps forward 5 steps back, we are to close for me to lose my focus now! I know that it could be so much worse! I had to spend a good 20 min tonight by myself and pulled myself together, for my family for my son! I hate days like today, they suck! I know in my head it’s what needs to be done but in my heart I’m screaming NO for Bo’s sake! So this is what the plan is, it sucks big time, since they are “squeezing us in” Thursday he won’t have surgery until afternoon!!! Seriously after freaking noon?? Which means he will be NPO, nothing to eat or drink after 2 am! Yep 2 freaking am, how in the world am I supposed to tell my DIABETIC child that he can’t drink or eat!! He drinks more then most kids, it’s s side effect of his diabetes. This is one of the worst part for him when it comes to him having any procedure. It SUCKS! I feel so sorry for our nurse that day, because he isn’t a happy camper!! It will be around a 2 hour procedure, he will then be takin to the PICU to recover. Since he will have a chest tube( terribly painful, we hated the last one ugh) he will be mostly sedated the rest of the day and into the night Thursday. Tomorrow he will have his port repacked and hopefully it looks ok because if it doesn’t they will clean it good and pack it again in the OR Thursday! Clearly this is not what we wanted, we’re hoping and praying theses biopsies show the exact same thing as it did in June! Keep my sweet boy In your thoughts and prayers it’s going to be a long 2 days!